the usual morning that i missed him so much...

he msg me goin off to werk...

later i got a call from him...

"ayang i accident"

my heart beat fast.

i woke up n bathe n wait for him to call me which hospital he is sent to.

after he called, i quickly make my way there.

its such a long way from here to tan tock seng...

once i reached there... got the visitor pass.

he waited for the x rays.

then i remembered, tat i always wanted to see him in uniform, n yes indeed todae i did.

later i felt so hungry i felt like goin to grab some food.

i losted my way to the atrium...

i went to the montuary instead. haha... there wasnt a single soul there.. creepy. hehz

bought polars and ice lemon tea.

wen i got bak to the a&e. zuriat was already out.

waited for him to get his mc.

and then we collect his medicine.

went home let him wash up.

clean his wound and stuff later we went to the traffic police to get his report n statements done.

i even slept there wen he made his report... so long.... like hours of waiting. it would b boring rite

sayang if u were alone.

then later we went bak and went to watson, bought his wound dressing later to macdonald

ta pau food and then we went little guilin

so romantic that plc...

he ate there, we went home clean his wound and i got home...

physically yes i look tired but i m very happy i get to spend the whole day with him n i was there

for him.

love you sayang.... muackz!

adat berkasih la kalau org bercinta bergaduh...
adat hidup kalau slalu mengahadapi masalah...

but my love for u zuriat surpass the boundary of just love itself...
i chose to b with u...
for better for worst..
wat ever we've gone thru made us stronger for today..
wat ever we face today is to make us stronger for tomorow and more.

it wont stop but we can stop it from breaking us up.
wat ever reasons we misunderstood ea other... i m sorry
but it definately nvr made me love u less syg...
and it definately nvr change my perception of seeing u as the one.

from the very beginning i knew u r the one...
so pls stop looking down on urself...
apply wat u have taught me...
u r too good to b true syg...
i couldnt ask for more.

dont run ...
coz i m here to walk wit u
to hold ur hand
knowing tat i m here to walk u thru ur worries
or our worries together.

tommorow, today will b yesterday.
history that passed,
n i want u to say
"hey we made it thru"

i love u dear... dont worry.. i m here...

always....

todae... hahax... i played badminton with my old peeps...

the peeps that i've last seen on hari raya!

they planned to play badminton at jurong east sports cntr.

i have difficulties waking up early, it was raining n the wheather was sooooo nice!!!

i dont feel like waking up...

but i woke up coz i told myself..."wen is gonna b the nex time i'll b playing badminton again?"

probably next yr.. hahakx...

i wore my elmo tankytoppy

and my flowery shorts...

after badminton, we went to Mr teh tarik and had our lunch there... i ate masalah thosai with tea and later i drank bandung.

went to video ezy with hidayah tiq and mush

i rented vcd, dream girls, music and lyrics and the epic movie.

went home with them... they waited me to wash up and get dressed.

all of us went to tiq's house to watch the vcds i rented...

damn my first day of mensus... i dirtied my jeans and i have to wash it at tiq's plc..

paisey man....

i didnt get thru my fiancee hp at 230.. he have to end werk late...

later he picked me up at tiq's plc.

went to my plc. watch tv together n eat.

n my mensus pain is killing me.

iat bought me mensus pills ard 11pm

so sweet of u honey...

love you so much zuriat.

ouh yah... remeber i said i need a pda?? haha got it!

O2 Atom pda! wooohooo!

I m angry at small small little things. Even the smallest littlest thing I cud get angry and i ended up angry for nuthing.

Frustrated wen ppl look at me. Coz i felt awkward that way as if i wore sumting wrong.

I will let go of my anger to the person closes to me the one who is so patient and who loves me So muCh.

I've been doin tings tat I dont mean to do to others wen I m angry tO satisfy my feel.

Ended up hurting ppl I doN't want to hurt.

I don't want all this to continue and im old enuf!

i dont want to end it up like any of my past r.ships.
Whats is from the past is not to repeat but to learn and b a better person.

I realise i got to change coZ i want to change,

Not for anyone.
Easier Said than done

Try!
Once, twice. Thrice or WhateVa. Try tiLL i succeed.
I can't continue tis way.
Im old enuf
Mature
Soon to be a wife insyallah.
I don't want to be seen as an angry person.
I want him to sense,feel and see tat I m changing..
I believe I have to change, (kalau bkn diri siape lagi?)no one can help you unless u help urself.
We live with choices.....
I made a choice to be with zuriat.
And a choice to change for the better. Insyallah...

Today. I went out alone... Went to werlc place,take my shoe and cup... I bought a dress... Hehe pretty...and I reserved two more clothes. Hehe. I don't noe how to stop shoppin. I went bugis st to buy grey jeans... Darn. It cost me 30bugs.tried to find pda cover but I find It too x. Went ard bugis but I cudn't find.aniting that I reli want. Went to cold storage... I cudn't find any olive.brrr...

went home...
cook for my fiancee.... he love it! love u hun!

todae is a very very memorable day of my life....

the day that i m his fiancee...

9 june 2007

a month exact from the first day we met, 9 may 2007

(which also happens to b my birthday, ekekekeke.)

-astonishing

-remarkable

-unbelievable

-OMG

-wat were u thinking

-???

yes i knoe wat all of u are thinking...

its may seems to b drastic but its a feeling we both cudnt explain.

its a feeling that drive us madly in love.

-togetherness

-comfort

-similarities

-dream

sumthing that i longed to have, sumthing tat i tot i cudnt have, sumthing i tot i cud oni find in my dreams.

in other words,

after i found Zuriat, i cudnt ask for more.

like i've found the other missing part of me to complete the whole me.

the other puzzle piece.

Its amazing how we hold each others hands and it feels right and he felt the same way too.

Its gonna be a challenging, tough and rough... but we r goin to b strong for anything that comes in between us, Insyallah.

Love you Zuriat... so much.

todae i m really sleepy... i dont knoe y... rushed wen i wanted to go to my cuzzie's wedding...

kamarul. love the baju kurung colour so soothing... he was very nervous wen the akad nikah is

held. n he cant stop sweating! haha cant imagine if its my turn if there is... insyallah. n todae is

the firat day i didnt get to meet Zuriat!!!! miss him so much!! nvr get enuf of him.