soooooFizah

i miss everything but i love u most

2008-08-08T09:47:00.000-07:00

u r always on my mind since i first woke up in the morning knowing tat today i m loved by u and for ea following day.

i look at ur photograph all the time.... bring all the memories back to life....

i remember when we first kissed, I still feel it on my lips

I remember the simple things, I remember till I cry..

tears of joy.... tat keeps me fighting to love u more ea day...

mother day

2008-05-11T07:09:00.000-07:00

On mother day i spent the day with my mum, went to jurong point, ltr met zuriat and his mum at swensen, to blanje both of our lovely mothers. lol it was a fun outing then later we rounding the whole of jurong point, shopping la. lol.

Happy mother's day!

my birthday!

2008-05-09T06:33:00.000-07:00

my birthday happens to b on the second day of my graduation show. lol. and best part, i m sick! well alrite, at least i have the spirit there. i went to skol to check out my stuff on my panel. then i waited for Iat. later he came and he present me beautiful roses...! i love you hun. thanks alot.

then later we went to banquet n had our dinner, then i hav no appetite to eat at all. i wasted my food.

He next had a suprise for me, he didnt tell us wer we r heading to. i was quite lost in the first plc, but then secret didnt kept tat well, lol i saw mandai, n i knew tat very moment tat he is briging me to the night safari! lol! and he kept denying it. bluek! sayang i knoe ok.!

well i love tat suprise but ehehe, i wasnt in with the appropriate attire. well take alook for urself.

I had the best birthday ever, thanks sayang!

2008-03-17T07:15:00.000-07:00

on his birthday.. i met him, i skipped my second class but i've already taken my attendance down... lol. we went to far east and had lunch at Ramen Ten. Later we took a ride to the Singapore Flyer!!!! yeay!!!! it was so high up, he bedek me saying that we have to hold on to the bar coz wen we reach the top we will be upside down... lol i m so naive. The view was beautiful. as usual we cam whores took lots of pictures. then we had our dinner at marina Square.. pecel lele!

Arts birthday!

2008-03-15T06:40:00.000-07:00

today is we celebrate his birthday 2 days earlier because on his birthday i m schooling. i baked him a heart shaped cake and cook seafood spaghetti for him. Was suppose to meet him earlier then he kena mobilize... have to reportto werk a.s.a.p. met him ard 5 and we went to vivo and i showed his surprise!!! i bought him burberry touch perfume. he loves it. and after that we went to ride the cable car! it just happen that we had cable car 17, which is his birth date, how coincidence is tat! weeee! so high up! so romantic... heheh muackz! love him sooo much! i hope he love everything.

2008-01-10T01:09:00.000-08:00

so much that i love you
n always that i need you
everything you do it will always make me smile
theres no moment that you will make me not like u nor love u

whenever i m upset with u
you will kiss my lips
all of a sudden i forgot that i was upset
see what magic u have?

You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to argue or fight no more
i despise it but i m too weak to push u away
so u melt me there

You knoe exactly wat to do
so that i wont stay mad at u for too long.
Did you take the advantage of the fact
That I love you so much

All those days we are together
It works like magic, your kisses will make me weak
No one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

I just cant let go of u............

inspired by a song

2008-01-08T02:32:00.001-08:00

we didnt knoe wer to go so we randomly went to sembawang park. wanted to eat at satay club but it closed down!!!!!!! urgh!!

2008-01-08T02:22:00.000-08:00

we went to the Utter Rubbish art exibition... which is indeed of an utter rubbish... cool though.

2008-01-08T02:10:00.000-08:00

The other day we went to labrador for picnic. we went they quite late in the afternoon. i cooked for him, nasi goreng and bread pizza. wen we first got there we parked at the wrong plc. we went in to the history part of labrador, it was very scary... so eerie... its for the war long ago, wer many soldier died... we made our move to the sea side. we sat near a BBQ place. half way eating it start raining, we are so lazy to run away n find shelter, i open up my umbrella and we ate under the umbrella in the rain... hehehe so sweet..... it was fun side seeing there, fresh but rainy. great day. love u hun.

2008-01-08T02:04:00.000-08:00

Today morning was so difficult for me to wake up! Damn! I m so sleepy lah! Went to to work, nani was super early, she reached around 830am, wen she called I was at city hall, we both reach there quite early cause no one was in the office. As in the designers are not in yet. Wen they r in, we chose our sits/ what they call desk, cool man I hav my own table. The seniors are all friendly. Taught us lots of things, my first assignment, lol SPRINGfield! Handbook for spring field, what the best part? Each time I on the EMAC, it hangs, restart hang restart n it hangs!!!! I ended up using dell, but del doesn’t have photoshop and I ended and ended up using MACHINTOSH G4, that was classic man. The oldest of the oldest mac I’ve met! They don’t even have usb for u to plug in ur thumbdrive. PLUS, its slow, each leter I typed in I hav to wait like for it to load. But I manage to finish my cover and back page. I went on doin my dividers in dell pc. I finished all at 545pm. The comp hangs and I suddenly realize I didn’t SAVE IT! I got to restart it. And I have to do it all over again, hows that for a first day at work? And btw my assignment has to b done by tomm. Well done fizah. Lol. For frustrated but I remain cooooolll…… rilek aje muka. Wah… if the office are all my gengs I would go screaming and beat up the pc. Irritating la, I’ve done all my dividers and it all gone and I have to restart! Brugh…. Any how, wat choice do I have, just redo la, just take it as a challenge, an advantage and of coz a learning process. So rmbr to SAVE SAVE SAVE!

Later iat fetch me up from werk, he got lost… lol…. Told him about my clumsiness! Later we went to lavender to check out some helmets… ouH yahzzz, before that we took some pictures with quite an interesting background. Lol. Later we went straight up to juring went to guardian bought his stuff and went CK to buy his QUAKERoat instant. Went home and we had our dinner, sambal pari!!! Wooohooo! Nice rite sayang! He kept on adding more rice… lol! He just love FOOD! Love you dear! Later watch tv for awhile and he went home and I type out this and after this I m off to sleep. Toodles… lol nites.
Ouh not to forget today what ever I faced really tested my patience.
N I will survive! (it’s a song u idiot)

What I’ve learnt today,
n wat i need

1. create pages in freehand
2. attach text to path
3. embed picture in a shape u want
4. network sharing folders
5. always save ur files
6. a5 size is 148 x 210 cm
7. wats bleed for (3cm)
8. I need lolli
9. I need plain water
10. I need sweater

layang layang day

2007-12-01T07:21:00.000-08:00

heheh look! we went to east coast and played with kite... wee!!!!
we went sunshine to print my DPM, then we went to banquet to have our lunch... later we went east coast... to take some fresh air, we decided to buy a kite and ride a rented bicycle. at the central was pretty crowded with people so we ride rigth up almost to the end and fly our kite up high in the sky!!!!! weeeee! at that moment, my assesments didnt bother my mind! i really need a break man! some fresh air wont kill!i had fun, with my darling of course.... he got addicted and it seems like i m not the only one with the deprived childhood, he was too.

2007-10-22T08:24:00.000-07:00

on oct 22nd...
i finish skol at 3pm and he didnt go to work coz he got a bad headache this morning...
After skol i went to his place... poor baby... he look so lethargic...
later we make our move to have our dinner at thek whye (did i get that spelling rite?)
Anyhow, you knoe wats the funny part?
i got on the bike w/o my helmet on WHEN we are on the bike AT THE main road.
I realise it wen this "pakcik" was staring at me with that cunning look! he didnt
take his off me till i m out of his sight. i was like wat the hell is he staring at???!
that the wind got strong and i realise that my hair was blown "beautifully" by the wind.
hahha i was like "dngr2 i tak kai helmet".. he stop the bike and he laugh like crazy!
i really felt like rolling down on the ground! lepak babe! ni da sampai main road baru perasaan tak kai helmet. isyk! dasyat!
tu la da sedap sgt bebual abis tu lupa nak kai helmet.. slenger.. joke of the day. yat told me about his childhood cuteness.. kinda cute...not kinda cute its really cute! $2 birdie for freedom. Sumpah i cant stop laughing. it was raining heavy wen we were having our dinner. went home in the drizzling rain. went to lakeside to buy some MR BEAN for my mum and himself. send me home and we call it a day... i've not been having enuf rest lately.. hmm been having dreams and i tend to wake up in the middle of the nite coz i pee too much.. LOLs too much plain water... cant help it too obses to kill of the pimples on my face. n darling u can download ur game tomm or some other time u r free. u r drowsy and groggy... hav an early nite.

2007-10-21T08:31:00.000-07:00

on sun october 21st...
my fiance brought me to the changi airport...
it was cool... it was very long since the last time i've been there.
we walked ard, went to the viewing mall... heehe
i wasnt clear in terminal 2 it was clearer in terminal1...
bUt......... theres no plane in terminal1..

Went to Swensen.... i ate aglio spagghetti... yum2.... tapi tak cukup...
ate salad. ate deep fried mushroom... melts in ur mouth... and
my dearest ate a bg burger till he find it "muak"...
LOL!

after dinner we went shopping! At cotton on.. geee i bought more stuff than him.
its a once in awhile thingy for us to do all this shopping... thank you hun for everything....
so sweet of u...

went to the national library to return my overdue books.

todae was fun! Love you!

2007-10-15T07:06:00.000-07:00

our 5th month anniversary
i rushed doin everything for him.
i did a scrap book of 5 pages.. pop out.. hehe
and................
i did a shirt of my own design on it! i wanted a grey shirt but that
printing shop oni have my next favourite colour, which is white.
we met at marina square... i was running after the bus! thank god i didnt miss it... i was so damn worried that i m gona be late i rushed and i headed to mini toon to find a box for my pressy for him. i saw this cute bear DIY box. i straight away buy it and went to the nearest starway and sat down there ignoring people passing by watching me. i figured out how to fold the box. hahah it was funny i wanted to laugh to myself but i tahan... people might think i m crazy. hahah. so i place the tshirt first at the bottom and the scrap book. i love the present. wen i met him i was grasping... hehe i hugged him and kissed him... miss him so much. he initially wanted to drag me to a shop BUT as soon as i had my few footsteps, he turned me ard and point to me a cute bag behind the wall "whats that sayang? is that a bomb, u go and check la" i laughed!... hehe so sweet! he gave me a bear...

You noe wats very surprising? the box i gave him wrote "for you", and the card the gave me, on the envelope he wrote "for you". the bear he gave me is exactly the same with the picture of the bear on the gift box i gave him... wat a coincidence... :)
i love you dear... so much! thank u for everything... i cudnt ask for more... more than just special, our love is extraordinary.

2007-10-09T08:51:00.001-07:00

i m the luckiest woman on earth, having him by my side...
My love... Zuriat.

2007-10-04T23:00:00.000-07:00

todae he surprised me...

he told me he miss me ...
and he wud like to meet
me at my void deck to say
hi, kiss and hug... wen
i met him, i passed him
the popiah goreng my
parents made... he gave
me his keys and told me
to open his box and place
the popiah in it, as he was
"lazy" to put it in. BUt to
my surprise, wen i open
the box, there was a box
of present... i turned to
him and hugged him...
so sweet..... i didnt open it,
i was too speechless. i cant
believe he came out with that
surprise idea. We headed to
the bubble tea shop and he
bought yam drink. then we sat
at the bench nearby my house..
"i dont kne if u like it, u like
the watch i showed u online rite?"
From then i was confident that
the present contains a wrist
watch. Hahah i opened the wrapping,
i saw the word "CREATIVE", its a MP3!!!
The one i told him that i liked at funan...
i didnt expect him to buy it for me...
its thoughtfull f him as he knew my
previous mp3 couldnt be saved
anymore.... its pretty ayang....
love it so much...
thank u... u r too kind.

2007-08-25T20:20:00.000-07:00

i choose u

for better for worse

told u my love surpass just love itself

just let the bad day past

for we r there yesterdae to learn to make us realise

how stubborn how hurtful things we can say to ea other

think of it

mostly r misunderstanding

misinterperation of how we talk to ea other.

wud yesterdae make us stronger?

it wont stop but we can

stop it from breaking us up.

its hard i noe

give me time, i failed to changed

time after time

but its part of a success to fall

we say nonsense wen we r angry

upsetting one another

tat got to end

i cud do nothing else

but to try

give it another chance

not give up

building:destroying

your choice

love itself was nvr enuf, true

but wat brought us here is becoz of love

wat made us think its

worth is also becoz of love

wat made us go extra mile for

ea other is also becoz of love

it all started becoz of love

after tat was more than love tat made

us stronger like fights for example.

i figured out wat can b

done wen fire begining to start

we agreed for simplicity

not making things complicated

all we got to do is mend this

n things are closer enuf to a perfect us

forgive me pls

for i m most at wrong

i m not giving up on u

but if u do then wats worth giving up for?

:'(

LOVE YOU SO MUCH

2007-08-09T07:33:00.000-07:00

Our monthly anniversary happen

;

to fall on the 9aug. i made him a

alittle something. its a frame

;

with our pict!

;

not any ordinary frame but

;

a unique one!

;

muackz! love u!

;

I wanted to go marina

;

to watch

;

fireworks. He surprised me,

;

instead of marina, he suggested

;

DHL balloon, trying our luck.

;

C if we cud catch the fireworks

;

wen the balloon rises. Wen we at

;

the top, we tot we won't be able

;

to c the fireworks. But right after

;

I said that, the fireworks shoot

;

out into the sky... Its very pretty!

;

how SPECIAL IS THIS

;

Sumting I definitely can't

;

forget. We watched fireworks

;

160metre from the ground, 40

;

storey high,beat that! Hehehe.

;

After that we went to east coast,

;

take a stroll by the beach.

;

Hugs

;

n kisses.... Romantic right...

;

I Love u honey, so much.

;

Thank u lots... U r so romantic

;

n so sweet, u r the best ever,

;

no one can come close being

;

special as u.

2007-07-18T23:45:00.001-07:00

i miss gd old times

i miss the finest things in life

thinking about everything

listening to brown eyes

i cried

;

like a baby

for all that i've been thru i tot i wud grew stronger.

not weak like tis

.tired.

.lost.

.complicated.

not doin a thing.

can i shake it off?

can run as fast as i can

far from wat i hav in hand

wud it make me feel better

in time wer no trust is given to me

wer compromising isnt the key

to us anymore

fight

;

fight

;

fight

hell yeah im getting insane

i feel better wen i

;

type

;

type

;

type

i m not an angel.

i make mistakes.

i dont want to loose sumthing precious

sumthing i wud die having or losing

.appreciation.

?m i appreciated?

.love.

is ther love wen u shout in anger?

love= beautiful PLUS pain

.go back.

can i go back wen true love strikes

can u tell me how a perfect love

goes wrong

can i come bak to the day wen the

love was strong

.sorry.

i m not perfect

2007-07-05T03:35:00.000-07:00

this are the tings i want/ need... brugh...

first n most important is my face anti biotic.. my pimples are goin tremendously crazy over the pass few days... my hormones wen up... does tat mean i m horny? weeeehehehe..... no la it just pops out of no wer on my face... good ness even if the makeup covers the pimple stil brudge up. have to b in shady plc as to avoid the pimple to been seen.

i need a new wallet... i've been using mine for hell i knoe how long.

i need a new watch... all my cheap watches are out.. i m left with my adidas green watch and my 25 hours classy watch...

i actually need my contact lens cleanser.. but i m now sticking to wearing my new specs so.. contacts cleanser can wait.

i need my make up cleanser... soon finishing.

my make up is also finishing, shud i try the new maybelline lightweight foundation which is cheaper but i dont knoe if it suits me... or shud i just stay with MAC... soon i will b choosing.

i need a face illuminator to make my face look more radiant!

i need face lift!!! i got double chin ok...theres this product by bio essense. face lifting

helps to speed up skin metabolism, whiten and reduce acne! i need that!

next... eye bags... i need a product tat can reduce my eye bag... i havent found tat yet.

i already have a concealerfrom body shop but i saw another concealer which makes me want it... concealer from Skinfood. banana concealer stick $21.

i saw a product "pink magic" it gives u the natural pink look for your cheeks lips and nipples.. but it cost u $81... gd things is u dont need lipstick and blusher.. cool huh.

i need a mascara... its running out soon.

hey i m now a pro using liquid eye liner... bye2 pencil liner..

i need running shoes... i've been using my dad's.

i m jogging everyday ... hey dont laugh i m serious.

ouh i saw this new crocs sandals $52.45... nice...

i need to polish my silver necklace.. and buy a new one.. i broke mine but tat can wait.

i need a baby doll shoe to match all of my new dresses i've bought.

i want to learn how to make cupcakes.

i read up a magazine, found a new eating plc.. 'CUMI BALI indonesian restaurant'

theres cheap treats.. its ornatelydecorated interior is a tad fussy but that's not goin to stop us from checking out one of the best-kept secrets in the cbd area. its been there for the past 3 yrs... i got to find it out like NOW!

last but not least.. MUST WATCH TRANSFORMERS>>> THEY R AWESOME!!!

2007-06-24T22:21:00.000-07:00

the usual morning that i missed him so much...

he msg me goin off to werk...

later i got a call from him...

"ayang i accident"

my heart beat fast.

i woke up n bathe n wait for him to call me which hospital he is sent to.

after he called, i quickly make my way there.

its such a long way from here to tan tock seng...

once i reached there... got the visitor pass.

he waited for the x rays.

then i remembered, tat i always wanted to see him in uniform, n yes indeed todae i did.

later i felt so hungry i felt like goin to grab some food.

i losted my way to the atrium...

i went to the montuary instead. haha... there wasnt a single soul there.. creepy. hehz

bought polars and ice lemon tea.

wen i got bak to the a&e. zuriat was already out.

waited for him to get his mc.

and then we collect his medicine.

went home let him wash up.

clean his wound and stuff later we went to the traffic police to get his report n statements done.

i even slept there wen he made his report... so long.... like hours of waiting. it would b boring rite

sayang if u were alone.

then later we went bak and went to watson, bought his wound dressing later to macdonald

ta pau food and then we went little guilin

so romantic that plc...

he ate there, we went home clean his wound and i got home...

physically yes i look tired but i m very happy i get to spend the whole day with him n i was there

for him.

love you sayang.... muackz!

2007-06-21T05:29:00.000-07:00

adat berkasih la kalau org bercinta bergaduh...
adat hidup kalau slalu mengahadapi masalah...

but my love for u zuriat surpass the boundary of just love itself...
i chose to b with u...
for better for worst..
wat ever we've gone thru made us stronger for today..
wat ever we face today is to make us stronger for tomorow and more.

it wont stop but we can stop it from breaking us up.
wat ever reasons we misunderstood ea other... i m sorry
but it definately nvr made me love u less syg...
and it definately nvr change my perception of seeing u as the one.

from the very beginning i knew u r the one...
so pls stop looking down on urself...
apply wat u have taught me...
u r too good to b true syg...
i couldnt ask for more.

dont run ...
coz i m here to walk wit u
to hold ur hand
knowing tat i m here to walk u thru ur worries
or our worries together.

tommorow, today will b yesterday.
history that passed,
n i want u to say
"hey we made it thru"

i love u dear... dont worry.. i m here...

always....

2007-06-20T04:52:00.000-07:00

todae... hahax... i played badminton with my old peeps...

the peeps that i've last seen on hari raya!

they planned to play badminton at jurong east sports cntr.

i have difficulties waking up early, it was raining n the wheather was sooooo nice!!!

i dont feel like waking up...

but i woke up coz i told myself..."wen is gonna b the nex time i'll b playing badminton again?"

probably next yr.. hahakx...

i wore my elmo tankytoppy

and my flowery shorts...

after badminton, we went to Mr teh tarik and had our lunch there... i ate masalah thosai with tea and later i drank bandung.

went to video ezy with hidayah tiq and mush

i rented vcd, dream girls, music and lyrics and the epic movie.

went home with them... they waited me to wash up and get dressed.

all of us went to tiq's house to watch the vcds i rented...

damn my first day of mensus... i dirtied my jeans and i have to wash it at tiq's plc..

paisey man....

i didnt get thru my fiancee hp at 230.. he have to end werk late...

later he picked me up at tiq's plc.

went to my plc. watch tv together n eat.

n my mensus pain is killing me.

iat bought me mensus pills ard 11pm

so sweet of u honey...

love you so much zuriat.

2007-06-19T09:33:00.000-07:00

ouh yah... remeber i said i need a pda?? haha got it!

O2 Atom pda! wooohooo!

2007-06-18T08:58:00.000-07:00

I m angry at small small little things. Even the smallest littlest thing I cud get angry and i ended up angry for nuthing.

Frustrated wen ppl look at me. Coz i felt awkward that way as if i wore sumting wrong.

I will let go of my anger to the person closes to me the one who is so patient and who loves me So muCh.

I've been doin tings tat I dont mean to do to others wen I m angry tO satisfy my feel.

Ended up hurting ppl I doN't want to hurt.

I don't want all this to continue and im old enuf!

i dont want to end it up like any of my past r.ships.
Whats is from the past is not to repeat but to learn and b a better person.

I realise i got to change coZ i want to change,

Not for anyone.
Easier Said than done

Try!
Once, twice. Thrice or WhateVa. Try tiLL i succeed.
I can't continue tis way.
Im old enuf
Mature
Soon to be a wife insyallah.
I don't want to be seen as an angry person.
I want him to sense,feel and see tat I m changing..
I believe I have to change, (kalau bkn diri siape lagi?)no one can help you unless u help urself.
We live with choices.....
I made a choice to be with zuriat.
And a choice to change for the better. Insyallah...

2007-06-15T22:24:00.000-07:00

Today. I went out alone... Went to werlc place,take my shoe and cup... I bought a dress... Hehe pretty...and I reserved two more clothes. Hehe. I don't noe how to stop shoppin. I went bugis st to buy grey jeans... Darn. It cost me 30bugs.tried to find pda cover but I find It too x. Went ard bugis but I cudn't find.aniting that I reli want. Went to cold storage... I cudn't find any olive.brrr...

went home...
cook for my fiancee.... he love it! love u hun!

2007-06-09T04:07:00.000-07:00

todae is a very very memorable day of my life....

the day that i m his fiancee...

9 june 2007

a month exact from the first day we met, 9 may 2007

(which also happens to b my birthday, ekekekeke.)

-astonishing

-remarkable

-unbelievable

-OMG

-wat were u thinking

-???

yes i knoe wat all of u are thinking...

its may seems to b drastic but its a feeling we both cudnt explain.

its a feeling that drive us madly in love.

-togetherness

-comfort

-similarities

-dream

sumthing that i longed to have, sumthing tat i tot i cudnt have, sumthing i tot i cud oni find in my dreams.

in other words,

after i found Zuriat, i cudnt ask for more.

like i've found the other missing part of me to complete the whole me.

the other puzzle piece.

Its amazing how we hold each others hands and it feels right and he felt the same way too.

Its gonna be a challenging, tough and rough... but we r goin to b strong for anything that comes in between us, Insyallah.

Love you Zuriat... so much.

2007-06-02T03:35:00.000-07:00

todae i m really sleepy... i dont knoe y... rushed wen i wanted to go to my cuzzie's wedding...

kamarul. love the baju kurung colour so soothing... he was very nervous wen the akad nikah is

held. n he cant stop sweating! haha cant imagine if its my turn if there is... insyallah. n todae is

the firat day i didnt get to meet Zuriat!!!! miss him so much!! nvr get enuf of him.

2007-05-28T03:08:00.000-07:00

i taught todae i m gonna b early for werk.. haha but darn! i m late... i tot i was werking at 12 at bugis. but i m werking at golden shoe at 10.30.

zuriat wanted to eat tau hue with me... sorie deary next time k..

n todae he fetch me like usual...

2007-05-27T07:38:00.000-07:00

todae i m gona meet his family! woah!!! nervous nyer!!!!!

i wrap the presents last minute.... haha da nak kuar umah baru nak wrap.

i tried so many clothes... i ended up wearing like normal... simply shirt n jeans..

i just hope i m presentable...

zuriat picks me up... nervous like crazy.....

his grandma kiss me... jealous eh sayang??? dia lupa kiss u.... alalala.

his atok pandai masak

muka nenek dia... ceria aje!! senyum2. love her ..

his aunties asked me to come over their house wen i m free.

his cuzzie kept photographing me. malu la sayer.

we all took pictures for kenangan...

n the laksa his atok made is so smooth n one of a kind. laksa penang.

later me and iat went to imm...

went to diva. bought earing n a ring....

polish the necklace he bought for me at moshi moshi.

tried to find myself a dress but we didnt se anything tat really capture my heart.

went to banquet... he ate yong tau fu

and i ate grilled steak... eh? forgot la.

bought a perfume... passion by frank olivier.

darn! i need a PDA!!!

2007-05-26T10:38:00.000-07:00

todae i went to assyakirin..
woah i learned sumthing logical that i can apply to my relationship.

:building: & :destroying:
which is easier>?

destroying of coz..

see the link? doin bad things is easier than doin gd things.

but the link to relationship is...
its difficult for both party to compromise with ea other and :BUILD: the relationship for the better.
while its easy for u to give up on the relationship and :DESTROY: wen u r upset with the other party.

think about it....
------------------------------------------------------------------------
in the evening iat and i went jurong point
he bought bracelet for his mum's birthday
he bought for me the heart shape locket, wer u can put in a picture inside...
classy i knoe hahaha.
we bought it at moshi moshi jewelery.

bought wrapping papers for my present for her mum n atuk.
wen banquet and we ate japanse food... he doesnt like it...
nyehhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

2007-05-26T09:36:00.000-07:00

wont argue like tat again...

i love you so much @rt

2007-05-26T09:11:00.000-07:00

todae.... alittle bit sad...

i met him like 45 minutes aje...
ate at tongseng todae during my break...
both ate nasi ayam.

there's :beras: on my mouth... haha its nasi la sayang bukan beras.
heheh.

after my break.. he went to buy his oakley specs.. he bought two of it!
n he bought camera too.
nvr listen to me.. he bought casio.. told him it is not gd.
spend lotsa money todae rite!!!!
tangan ade tahi lalat like me!

later at night after he is done with his shopping, he bought me bubble tea.

i remembered i need a new closet...
i need a new dress!!!

todae is midnight sales! arr! feel like my legs are broken!
feel like taking mc for tommorow. hakz.
carmen was cold towards me. hell like i care.

i got so stress at werk, a grp of matz.. was disturbing me at werk..
my goodness they scare the hell out of me.
asked for my number. my colleague sabo.. gave my number to them..
too bad.. gua tak layan brother.

my brother took my home.
sent evangeline home first.
my nail colour for todae is red haha.. on one hand only.. the left hand. kinda lazy to aint the other hand.
i need a cute top!

cioA*~~~~

2007-05-25T09:11:00.000-07:00

damn i forgot to call canon again!

2007-05-24T07:43:00.000-07:00

damn i was blur... we were so happy seeing ea other... tat we forgot to drop at bugis.

then wen we make our way back to bugis, we blur2 drop at lavender... wahahah "ayang, ni lavender tau..."(art)"ar?? ouh yeker?"(me). hahaha then we went in bak to the mrt...

went to cold storage n bought sushi!! weeeeee

went to delifrance, ate potato gratin hehe.. our favourite..

after our lunch we went silver corner... n we found our ring there! heheh

after tat i went to werk...

n he went shopping bought a pants from topshop...

he collect the engraved rings and brought it to my werk plc n put it on for me! hehe

then later he picks me up from werk.. went to mac...

bought the shrek ears... cute man.

2007-05-20T08:56:00.000-07:00

If theres any song tat can describe my love story with Zuriat "Brown Eyes" is the song.

Remember the first day when I saw your face remember the first day when you smiled at me you stepped to me and you said to me I was the woman you dreamed about remember the first day when you got to my house remember the first day when you took me out we had butterflies although we tried to hide and we both had a beautiful night.

The way we held each others hand the way we talked the way we laughed it felt so good to find true love I knew right then and there you were the one.

I know that he loves me cause he told me so I know that he loves me cause his feelings show when he stares at me you see that he cares for meyou see how he is so deep in love I know that he loves me cause its obvious I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts and he's missing me if he's not kissing me and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul.

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed remember the first day we had an argument we apologized and then we compromised and we haven't argued since remember the first day we stopped playing games remember the first day you fell in love with me it felt so good for you to say those words cause I felt the same way too.

i'm so happy so happy that you're in my life and baby now that you're a part of me you showed me showed me the true meaning of love and i know he loves me.

19 may 07

2007-05-19T22:56:00.000-07:00

(i m wearing sumthing. a tube ok. not nuthing.)

Maybe the main reason we fought was becoz
i m so use to b in an arguement or quarrel.
I've been like this for years.
i got to change somewhere.
to make this a lastin r.ship.

i and zuriat r here at the esplanade at makansutra.
i saw one big family having dinner here,
so "meriah!"(happening).
I wud love to take my family and his out to eat here
at the esplanade...
not for the food but,
for the feeling of gatherness...
Eat as one whole big family!

All the smiling, laughing and jokes, lovin ea others company.
imagining it had already made me feel the excitement.

18 may 07

2007-05-18T22:45:00.000-07:00

todae was just amazing...
i was rushing to werk,
zuriat had a concussion on his head.
didnt go to werk and took mc.
i was late so he sent me to werk.

i almost tripped over the hanger set.
so "kanchiong!"
n hel! my senior asked me "what are u doin here??,
today u r not werkin u r on standby."
i ran after Iat, n we were surprise with the fate that i cant totally forgot tat i m not werking today and he was suppose to go to werk n not suppose to have any mc anymore but yet he still did due to hitting his head on the shop closing bar buying me a red rose.
Amazing isnt it, we are dying to spend time with ea other but we knoe we cant coz we got responsibilities like werk. (duh!) But is just funny thinking of it, wow, i got to spend a day with u again! without planning!

i tot i was a planner, but i wasnt. Same like how Iat is.
I m a last minute person... i dont realli plan things i juz go with it if
last minute i have the time to have fun.
so yea... fizah just realised all along she wasnt a planner.

As i was sitting down at coffee bean alone drinking tea.
i remembered the days i was single.
The truth is there's never been a better time to be young, free and unattached.
a coffee or tea for one on a coffee table doesnt make u a loser.

BUT....
i m not single now... heee..
i choose to take the risk,
not to gamble,
but to be commited to a fated love.
It felt like i've found all the candies
tat my tastebuds desires in one whole pack!

2007-05-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

16 may 2007 is a memoriable day for us... haha mr zuriat bang his head on a bar buying me flowers... how cute... and its a surprise i cud nvr forget... i would nvr forget ur undying love for me.

2007-05-09T23:51:00.000-07:00

Thanks to all who made my birthday a blast!

Met ifah and nadira at Yew Tee Macdonalds,

ifah was helping out nad to install programmes

on her new MAC lappy! kaye eh korang beli laptop.

Niways.. after all the installation is done.

followed ifah home and she get changed.

later she gave me a present,

but i m not allowed to open it at tat time.

While nani on the other hand is out of her house

and was naggy that both of us are gonna be late

hehe Sorie beb...she cant stop smsing us on our

way to meet with her.

wen we met, the ball start rolling...

haha nani dressed japanese style!

ifah said i look like "kakak"2and ifah was always

the adorably small but gorgeous. heheh

We headed to far east to have our lunch,we are all starving!

We went Ramen ten.Macam2 aku nak order smue, sbab da lapar.

haha

i ate Spicy lala

ifah ate Chicken tom yum

nani ate black pepper beefwhen our food came,

they sang me birthday song

and took pictures (like duh!)

and ifah kissed me! awwww.. hehe

our drinks are all colourfull, red blue and yellow

Nani was the first to get full,

me and ifah cant get enuf and enjoyed our food.

Later i ordered raw salmon...i love it so much.. nani just simply hate it hahah

later we went SHOPPING!

hah! best kan...aku sorang jek shop

i bought tis turquoise cardigan at far east

later ifah bought tis perfumed lotion.. the smell is so nice

and i bought Dior lipstick

wanted to buy MAC lipstick but the customer service SUCK!

so we left and i ended up buying Dior lipstick...

iFah recommend, so thank u kak Ifah... hehe

We tried spectacles and make fun out of ourselves.

i bought a moisterizer,

a colleage of mine recommended.

We go Taka, followed ifah to get her pay cheque.

Bank it in and we headed to cineleisure.

Nani is looking for this Rusty outlet.

We didnt see it. wanted to watch movie but we skip tat

and headed bak to Taka again to buy myself a slipper from

M)phosis! i cant stand it anymore, that shoe is killing me.

Ifah spotted my sad face with a "sengau" voice talkingto the sales girl.

wah then my feet are on the go! haha.

the last plc,we went Gelare and had waffles,

by tat time, nani's sis and in lawcame over, zuriat and aza came over too.

zuriat cant stop laughing at all the jokes.

and how cute and lovely aza and ifah were.

Cute couple. we envy u. heheh.

all the food KAKAK NANI YG BLANJE, ramen ten and gelare.THANKS kakak nani!

hehehe.

my birthday was a blast! Thanks to all! i dont y the hell my bloggin space is so huge! sorie!

2007-05-03T05:50:00.001-07:00

i m sooo sick!!!

2007-04-25T23:29:00.000-07:00

For all the hidden lies
that i've already knew.
are there sumore i dont knoe?

i m still here feeling lost
Afraid to loose wat i have.
If theres sumthing u need from me,
take it and leave
but dont hurt me

2007-04-21T02:59:00.000-07:00

i dont want to b the last

i want to be the first and the last

dont u get it?

2007-04-21T00:46:00.000-07:00

if i could just change the way my life is now
wouldnt my life be sooo perfect?

but now wen it isnt perfect...
i feel low till the very bottom that
at the point of time i feel its the end.

we always want the truth...
but the fact is
sometimes....
wen the truth is told
we couldnt accept and take it
cause it is too harsh on you.

We tend to stick to wat eva we
have and afraid to move on.
just like the one typing this.
afraid to try new things

you tell ur self u can do it
u tell urself there no point turning bak
but the fact is u turn ur back on someone who
was really there for u.
someone who warned u
someone who really care and want to save you.
someone who thinks you r worth it.

wen u turn ur back,
they pick up wer they had left for u
and they gave up on u
coz they have feelings too,
they stand there feeling, theres nothing left to be saved.

and you,
you just feel hopeless, lost and regret.
this time theres no one who tries to find you
or save you

its confusing...
i wont set it right, coz
challenges will always enter to give life a twist
juz go thru it.

2007-04-18T06:42:00.000-07:00

shocked by unexpected truth
crushed my heart
i was speechless
i was paranoid
i m confuse
what shud b done

all came up making sense
all my curiousity answered
the wrongs was kept for so long
for the past
that i tot i was the only one wrong

i tremble, i cried, i gone hysterical
u love me in disguise

when the whole heart given
a new book was opened
new hope, trust, and hapiness
your speech of truth blew it

"maybe one day you will realise"
to whom who told me this phrase
i thank you
coz todae is the day i realise it

too late?
i m not sure.
whats for sure is
i m speechless and
stupefy.

i was too naive
stupid, emotional
and stubborn
n now curiousity killed me

for all this years
after wat had happened
its now i noe the truth
i m dissapointed

it looks like karma to me
"what comes ard goes ard"

u killed my passion and hope
for our new chapter.

hol

2007-03-23T08:40:00.000-07:00

holiday has just begin... 4 months of hols!!! thank god i found a job. at last assesments are over... i bought a sumthing like a pinafore dress yesterday and today i bought a black skinny jeans.. so many black outfit already...

was pissed off with a fren tis morning but i was fine after tat.

its been a long time tat i have not blog in coz of assesments.

well hehe theres one time i ate tulang merah and its $6 so i tot its for one person eating. but it turned out to b eaten by ard 3 person. My frens we laughing at me trying to finish up my food. here r my embarassing moments. i look like a babarian.

haha. look at me. so cartoonic. any way my face got better and heal. weeeeeee!

here are some picts i took from my lika ifah n nad photography.

i noe.. its ugly.. hua!
nang bo ti nang kui boti kui.

heheh i did PSP for my digtal photo media. i used a picture of nani and budi.

damn i m tired now. i'll blog wen i get more picts from nani. coz todae's pict is in her camera.

ouh ya my earing is with ifah. hahaha. bought earing just now. i realise.. tat asesments made me shop alot!. niyte people. T.T.F.N (Ta Ta For Now)

Labrador

2007-03-10T09:12:00.000-08:00

todae i woke up at 11am.. haha

did some home chores and watched sky high on disney channel. after that i had a family outing. My family celebrated my fathers and asyari's birthday together, we went to west coast to buy some food and "ta pau" and headed to Labrador... oh yah... i have plaster on my face, al becoz of colgate. hahaha. God that labrador place is so nice! so tenang dan tenteram...

Asyari was damn excited, he was shouting "BOAT! BOAT! Busu tu BOAT!" haha cute sey. he ran around and of coz the busu ran around too. hahakz, join in the cuteness.

we went to the end near the jetty... we r goin to let asyari have his first time ever fishing experience. haha. Well, not after 6 to 10 minute this 3 yr old kid got a fish! beginner's luck.

we ate the food we bought.. and later i went for a walk alone by the sea... take in some fresh air...

i knoe i look so slack like one nyonya.

Later wen we r at home... we all cut birthday cake! haha chocolate fudge cake! yum yum!

later i did my graphic design and now i m bloginh n now i m goin off to sleep!

ciao! people!

miss my blog

2007-03-08T05:38:00.000-08:00

Miss my blog.

i knoe its been days i have not update my blog... i've been busy with submissions... i m so stress.... and today morning was hell. dont want to talk abt it... i m now having severe headache... n i dressed up like one japanes freak. a black stokin with mini skirt and my high cut shoe.
messy sey my "dapur".

Today is my nephew's birthday, Asy'ari. hahah guese wat i've bought for him? i bought a fishing game and bob the builder tools. i love the loook on his face wen he opens his presents... its a satisfaction wen i hear him saying "wah!, present busu kasi!". it means a world to me. Love him so much.

recently i've try helping out lika with her photoshoot too.

boring

2007-03-03T07:26:00.000-08:00

today i did nuthing much.. waste my time alot. i was frustrated the whole day. mus msn me. n now i feel so disturbed... i knoe u miss me... but wat we r now is not wat we are last time... he dont trust me and there are so many things that r obstructing our way that even we ourself cant take it... i fear and i find it difficult to put myself in any relationship rite now... i feel so lost...

in the afternoon my cute nephew came to my house.... they nvr fail to make me smile... my precious treasure...

sandaran hati

2007-03-02T06:43:00.000-08:00

yakin kah aku berdiri
boleh kah aku mendengar mu

terkubur dlm emosi
tanpa bisa bersembunyi
aku dan nafasku merindukan mu

dalam hidup kesendirian ku
teringat ku teringat
pada janji mu ku terikat

hanya sekejap ku berdiri
ku lakukan sepenuh hati

peduli ku peduli
siang dan malam yang berganti
sedih ku ini tak ada erti
cinta kau la sandaran hati

inikah yg kau mahu
benarkah cara mu hanya

kau la yg ku tuju
pegang erat tangan ku
bimbing langkah kaki ku
aku hilang arah tanpa hadir mu
dalam gelapnya malam hari ku.

Letto, sandaran hati
Truth, cry and lie...........

picture posting dae

2007-03-02T05:23:00.000-08:00

MY L()VE.......

ok... wat did i do todae...?? hmm
went to skol and there was no advertising class. david went for assesments. me and some of my classmates went to the discussion room, we watched silence of the lamb... eeiiiuuu!! gross its a story abt hanibal. Later i decide not to go for graphic design class as i havent done a shit for that class. B4 we leave the discussion rm, we take crazy fotos hahax.

After that we make our way to bugis junction and i bought this pair of high cut sneakers... love it but i prefer if the rubber side cud be more white rather then yellow white, well nvm if u dont understand wat i mean.. heres my new shoe!

Nice?? haha i m changing my wardrobe to a theme of "rock chic".... to much of gerly girl and sexi clothes la uh... now i just want to rock! hahaha like real oni!

Hmmm... uhmmm at 4pm we were already reached orchard... we went esteller.. yea yea sorie nani i force u to eat there, but the mee goreng was nice rite?? nani applied a job at one of the retail store. . . we went to lucky plaza and i bought this cologne, its call "for my emotion"... hahah so sweet n so nice the smell, if i can put in smell in my blog i would probably do it already.

ouh yah UNIE!! thanks alot for helping me out... blur uh this pict sorie uh unie and i look hidious!

gosh so many things to do.... n i dont feel like werking on sun!!! n yah i'll try to help u out k lika. And rin! love ur new hairdo... stay cute and miss you too!

First march

2007-03-01T04:47:00.000-08:00

I woke up at 930 am to day... i didnt go to DPM class. i cant wake up! call up nani, asked nani to collect money from the class for photocopying. On my way skol i say this drunken malay guy getting out of a taxi puking near the stairway near a small canal, YUCKS!

And on my to lakeside mrt i got splashed by a lorry! urgh!!! the whole of my left was drenched! and thank god my lappy is not wet. In the mrt reaching Raffles plc, Lily called me, she told me theres no Design in context, GREAT! i m now on my way to skol for nuthing.

i met nani, accompany her to take id photograph. She later accompany me to pasta mania.
And after that i went to the library, met lika on msn, complained to her bout my hp bill! hahaha. on my way out from the library, i saw Nad.

whats stressing me is now I m stuck with my advertising!

Stressful n clumsy but still i m cute

2007-02-28T07:53:00.000-08:00

omg today i m late for clas again. i woke up at 630am but i fell asleep again till 730am.
wen i reached class, it was 920am... wats happening to me? i've been late all the time for this term. and things are getting worse wen my file in my thumbdrive corrupted. now i feel like i m goin to skol for nuthing. today i'll b starting my werk at GG5. hahah i cant beileve i m werking and skoling at the same time.
Nani is goin to try her luck at GG5 tampinese, wise choice, closeby her house. i hope i wont mess up at werk today. first impression last.

I m happy to see nani doin fine day by day. seeing her smile made me smile too. I m glad that i came up
to her and she see me as one help to her. I m proud of you nani, coz u made up ur mind not to quit.
You are goin to b just fine... Love you and you knoe that i would always want to b there for u, theres no reason
y i dont want to b there for you. Pls dont think that i m not goin to have time for u, just because i m now werking.
n i m NOT goin to have a bf soon.. I need my space to pick things up on my own and to slowly let go of my past.
i m all urs Dearest Nani.

n now i m having visual studies... i havent done a shit. . . y m i here again? wasting my time. rite...
he and his english essence nagging all the way.... now he is consulting everyone, one by one. shitness.
wat m i goin to tell him.. nani seems worried she's stuck too. goin to miss nani later, she is goin to meet
her fren Salena at starbucks.

ok i went to the job interview... yes yes i got the job. but i m having problems with the schedules. but yan
the boutique in-charge was very nice and made me feel comfortable and welcome and definately she understand
my curfew and skol timetable and my coming assesments. Ouh ya b4 i came to the interview, i was rushing thru
my lunch and i suddenly remembered that i forgot to photocopy my ic front and back. so i rushed myself to Kodak
and made a copy of my ic which cost me 40 CENTs, it would b just 10cents in my skol, well anyway, since wen i care abt money,
hah. Ouh and yah did i mentioned that the manager at delifrance was so cute and handsome.
And the person sitting beside me cant stop talking crap and damn they are loud and my potato gratin was so salty!

my mobile batt went low...

After the interview i went towards woodlands Things get exciting wen my heels got stucked at the mrt door.
Gosh! yea u tell me abt it, ITS embarassing!! Duh! everybody was staring. i just pulled my shoe hard AND thank GOD! i m off the hook, i tot i m gonna get squeezed, well lucky me.
ouh ya i saw two pigeons kissing intimately... hahaha so cute.

My dad was being noisy, he thinks i cant cope with werk n skol, well i gonna try, i wouldnt knoe till i try, wud i?
Well, hopefully i can prove him wrong. Well nani i m sorry if i cant accompany you to take id photo, i feel so bad. sorie yah.
love you nani.

thats all fer today. ciao....

28 Feb 2007

2007-02-26T11:05:00.000-08:00

Everything in life might be complicated at this moment.
Somehow we all always want to make ourselves happy,
We will always want to worry about what happened to us in the past.
Whether u like it or not life has to move on.

At times in life u will feel down, remembering the past
Feeling sorry for yourself,
The bad past you have, the memories that u know you can’t continue having.
The love you had for that someone is not there anymore.
Feeling like u have failed in life.

On other hand, look at yourself,
Tell yourself what had brought you here till this very day.
Without realizing, u have moved slowly, day by day,
You’ve been strong moving on even though u cried
Each day feeling the emptiness until one day you will get sick and tired of crying.

There are one thousand and one happy things you can do in life.
There are many more other things to worry about other than relationships.
The world revolves not only around relationships.

What ever shit that happens now, take it as a blessing in disguise.
Believe and have faith, but don’t depend on it w/o putting in effort to make your life a better one.
Remember yesterday is gone, and right now is how u shape your future.

Life is filled with experiences,
If you , feeling sorry for yourself or you feel like it’s the end,
Those thoughts have to end, because you don’t know what you are missing.

I am not saying my life is perfect; I do have my ups and downs.
I will cry.
But I must tell myself I can make it thru my life.
Cause whatever god brings to u, god will guide u thru.